Thats where I keep getting my strength I can feel it. I can smell it. I can feel the angels hand on my back letting me know its going to be okay. The part that is the hardest is the fear of the unknown. I remember when I was a detention officer in training thats what the sgt said.. the hardest part is the fear of the unknown. To overcome your fears will make you be able to handle anything that happens at work and in your life. He made a impact on me, cause whatever I do that I never done before I always picture him saying that and for some reason it always makes me feel safe and better. I say well lets go I got this. I mean if I used to run into grown men fighting in the jail like no bodys business. lol..I kind of feel like im fighting right now to get that feeling back.
I was young, I had endurance, I had no fear I was healthy...I want it back. I want my endurance back my health...and like yesterday I went hiking on thunderbird mountain it practically took my whole might. I mean seriously..> im just hard on myself you know... I used to run up and down like nothing...and my big o butt..was struggling stiff but I did it and I felt good.