Thursday, September 29, 2011

I MADE IT!!! iM HOME..

 The Dream Team I call of them!! THEY were my angels god sent to walk with me through this! M e and abel the  night before..
HI ALL! Im home I been home for a while now...4 days after the surgery. God works miracles and he worked one on me!!! I dont want to go in gory details because maybe you have a weak stomach. It is what it was Brain surgery. Scary I know...if you were like me and have to have the same surgery I looked online for peoples blogs to see what they said and only scared myself even more. Just the idea can make anyone scared to death for themselves...or if they know someone going through a pending brain surgery. Well as you can see my surgery was sept 12, 2011 at Banner Good Samaritan in phoenix arizona. I was scheduled to arrive at five am. THe night before some of my family and friends came over for a little bbq and some prayer to send me off to the hospital with love.
David my love...picked me up at 5am...my mom got the kids ready....to go with my sis in law...surgery wasnt supposed to be till 730am...
The ride up there was .....well weird...I kept asking David to keep driving and lets go somewhere...lol...In a way I was serious he knew I was ...but we keep laughing about it..
During check-in  I was shaking....and kept saying this has to be a nightmare....in some way....
I ended up in ICU prep area....which was weird and blue and I kept David so close to me...no one was their yet.
I had a special MRI that was supposed to be like a GPS and the had prob things on my head. David went in the MRI with me and stood next to the machine. It made me feel so good he was there. It made me feel so safe. Just thinking about it makes me cry..
I hadnt seen my mom yet...so after the MRI I was crying and scared...finally when they were wheeling me out..in the hallway I saw my mom and my auants and yelled out MOM..and she came running and I said come with me..my auants all hugged me...and we went in for the final parts before I go.
Everyone walked in with me and was crying...I felt scared more because their eyes...had such fear...I then remember the blue room...I was wheeled into and all kinds of people doing things and choking on the anthesia then waking up seriously head bandaged and wanting it off. I woke up proud though. I woke up thankful I felt free.!!
I was in the hospital four days..and amazed everyone. They thought I was going to have problems talking i had known my memory is fine.... I dohave some complications from the spinal fluid removal and have pain in my legs when i walk but it will go away i pray in time.
If your reading this and are in the same situation I was .Dont be afraid. Read my story MY testimony in life and know anything can happen when you have faith in God.  Find God hes right next you he will listen to your fears, and anything else and heal you. I promise.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

THE CROWN JEWEL OF THEM ALL>


I almost forgot about the best person in the world!!! My mother the cream of the crop the strongest lady in the world...she is the the 1# force behind me, helping me....praying for me.... doing everything she can to make me better....I love you mom...you are my best friend my only friend...and I thank you for everything you have done for me growing up...and now helping me with my health, my school my kids and my life. God Bless you and thank you Jesus for making you my mother. Your the precious jewel that makes everything better from food...to laughs to hurts...to telling me to shut up lol...your my mom and I will never leave you...We are stuck sorry...hahah
Thank you for everything....and I know I will get out of this.....Mom I have too We have so many plans...and I promise we will go to hawaii for your 60th birthday...maybe bring the kids too wth...!!!

I Love you.
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3 days till Brain Surgery...

This is how I been spending my few Months before my surgery........................
jennys Bday I never miss it!!

 Roberta and Corina!!!
 with PRincess Maddy...who ironically her brothers fav toys are also her as well.....


 My comadre Lucy I dont know what i would do with out her.
 and of course the KING in my life...My lil son...the apple of my eye...the lil boy...who never lets me rest..cause he loves his mommy..BIG ABEL...
 We went to the first cardinal preseason game against the chargers
 I did what i Love to do...Jet ski!!! in laughlin...............actually...I just love to Jet ski anywhere!!
 Hang out with the panda...David... Iknow I know...when you read the past blogs your like...this girls in love with him...still.....I am.....<3 and well...he loves me too.....so lets do this!!!!
I feel like im counting down to a new me! As if brain surgery is something to look forward too...hehehhe but at least I am mentally and spirtually ready for this. I been trying to do to the most I can before the surgery enjoying the days, enjoying the people in my life its been a beautiful time I have been having I feel like most of the time its a dream every day is such a blessing!! I been spending so much time with the kids I been spending time with my family and friends....I love life right now...
I have the worst sinus infection and ear infection that I am working hard to get rid of before surgery....
laughlin was a blast...a reall blast I enjoyed David...and seeing him accidently throwing us off the jet ski haha that was fun.
.only thing Daniel has been putting in work to make me miserable.... ;-(  I refuse to let Daniel keep doing this and doing this time. It has to stop. He was made because I didnt tell him i was going to laughlin with David I did lie...because he would have made it so I couldnt have went. Yes lying is bad...I shouldnt of did that...but the only way to get him to help me was that selfish yes...will I do it again now...Daniel is no longer in my kids life. His statment of I got other kids to support, and Maddy is really loud omg..... THATS YOUR KID>.... oh and come pick up your daughter....My daughter should I have paid him to babysit....
REALLY....hopefully my visit to child support and the restraining order will help him learn...A. No more communication...and name calling...he can do or he will go to jail..
            B. Maddy needs money and theres no if and or butts..
            C. TO late to fix....AND to stop calling my brain surgery a lie....I wish it was...
Daniel will no longer be in my kids lives and thats the end of story...unless child support ....deems he can have visits but the restraining order is in the process of being served..so BAM. go away negativity...your no longer allowed over her...go away far from me and my family.
I refuse to let him try to get me down...we are not together and havent been for a very long time...he doesnt own me...cause we have a kid..or need to know what Im doing all I can do is pray for him...that he gets help with his issues that he has been unable to control or understand for years...and can understand how much life and love and happiness is more important than misery.
bye negativity go away now...find some light...you will be okay...
LIFE IS STILL BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS>>>>>>>>>> the surgery is the start of a new beginning a new fresh start to a new me.....for me and my kids...

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Highly interested in the future of my two children...and creating postive memories for them is my goal. Im a single mother, a ASU graduate and a social worker...by accident.