Friday, November 8, 2013

Last day of second Round of radiation for my second tumor.

Time is going so fast I never have time to myself. I had a few minutes so here I am bragging about the best place in the world Phoenix Cyberknife where I get my brain tumor Radiation. Its amazing how in five days I can get true radiation with no pain fuss, or nothing. A little fatigue but I been going to work right after. today is the last day of my second one week treatment. Amazing how those beam of light are healing my tumors. My next focus is to watch what I eat and really work out. I mean reallly really.... do it. Its for life, I want to live to be a 100, so its going to take effort to care about myself..since I always wanna care about everyone else first. Im such a mom.

I just wanted to touch base and tell the world...or anyone who is not giving up on life because of whatever they are going through. Please dont. We are so blessed with days love your days I do.
My neices and nephews with abel and Maddy at the arizona state fair they had a blast that day! it broke my pockets but it was all worth it.
Always Love
Its me supporting my favorite Team Team Matthew in the Sharing Down Syndrome Walk
Queen Maddy
The two little kids I wanna live for and change the world for. This week i posted this on my facebook, and it got alot of likes and alot of shares. It made me cry to think wow, its just me and my little heart pouring out to anyone I can Im so proud its inspirational. I listen to god, I hope you do to its the secret to life. here is what I posted. "Yesterday at Radiation a girl sat next to me and was telling me how awful she feels waking up every morning coming there. I asked her why? She said it just makes me miserable and sick. She said she had brain surgery and they cant remove her tumor. I said Im so sorry I will keep you in prayer, she said you don't know what its like. I said yeah I bet. She asked why I am there. I said because I have brain tumors too. Her face was in shock. She said I would have never know. I said why? She said you look so happy. I said I am. I am very blessed to be getting this treatment, I am happier I get more time with my kids. God knows my heart and has given me another chance to live and be healed. Coming here is being obedient to what god wants for me. She was so shocked. She said I never looked at it like that. I said I had brain surgery like you but they removed my tumor two years ago, and for whatever reason I got too more. its all good its just life girl. Something we get to go through to teach others faith and fearlessness. She said that's what you are doing thank you so much. I said its cool girl, its just gods work. He works through all of us, working and teaching all the time you just have to listen. — feeling blessed." I gotta get ready and take off to RADIATION!! peace love and healing...xoxoxo Monica...

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

two new brain tumors...and Phoenix Cyberknife and Radiation.

Its been so long since I posted. I think I officially...have become over worked over drawn and delirious..My life has changed a lot in the past few months Abel's House has new locations...we are growing like crazy!! its so awesome. More people, more to help, and more to serve. I have grown a lot in my heart...with my kids...and Gabe. The last few months were crazy rocky, financially, emotionally...and everything combined. Enough to make me scream. As Im in the venture we called life...this blog helps me to relax. It helps me to get out what's on my a healing...
on my mind. So by reading this and what I wrote since the pretty much know what Im thinking and learning from so I hope you understand what this life is about. I know Im not the only person in the world..My problems are tiny to the just a little grain of sand..that while be blown away in the sand.with time. So when I heard BRAIN TUMOR and eye sight...that's was enough, I had enough. I have two new brain tumors and one is risking my eye sight..YES FRIENDS>>>>> those words I thought I would never hear again...its like Freddy Krueger Im baaaaack..!!! ;-( Apparently I have some rare genetic disease causing brain tumors...So this is what I learned from this life. Live it like you never lived it. Savor the smells, the touches, the happiness you have. Every minute is not promised...and whatever you have...can go away fast...false sense of reality even.
The blessings are everywhere!!!! I was blessed to be a patient at Phoenix Cyberknife and Radiation...the most cutting edge America..and there's only one of them. What a miracle!!! I'm so thankful a true miracle from god....and I feel very blessed to be their patient. If I can tell you another thing I learned in the last couple of months. Always know...Jesus Loves you...hold you head up high...hold on to your kids...tell them you love them everyday...and declare protection for them...and love everyone no matter what....little by little we can change the world. So if you are going through the same thing right now...Don't be scared....Your a miracle...jesus loves you....and you will prevail. xxoxxoxox mo..... Radition starts next week for will be only five days for each tumor...good bye are not wanted in this body....

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Feeling LIke a overworked..>TURTLE>>>>>

I feel like a turtle..I have so much going on and so little time to do it in. Their is some better way to manage time with rest and focusing and I swear I am going to get I have I have and I have Its gonna happen soon My dreams will come true with blood sweat and tears and more sweat and blood....dont give up on whatever your doing. You can achieve whatever you want to its all up to you. xoxoxox Mo. DONT GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS I NEVER WILL!!! Im having a blast....its not easy...but im having fun. xoxoxo

Friday, May 3, 2013

Im so tired of hearing about Jodi ARIAS!!

No matter what her life is OVER!! She is not going to walk away clean and be able to live a regular life. She admittted killing him she believes her self her lies and their is no way in hell she is going to walk set free....EVER >

Im just looking at her....and i feel sorry for her. I feel sorry for her that she had no self regulation no way to control her own emotions, no other outlet to focus on except jealousy...Its so sad. Its probably started when she was young poor thing. What's scarier is there's tons of other women out there that have this b behavior and could possibly re-enact this. She will be always in my prayers. I'm not trying to judge, I just can see she did everything to get out of this, but what if she just told someone how she felt this just wouldn't have happened. She wasn't in her right mind. To do all that damage she wasn't in her right mind, I'm surprised she didn't get Rule 11 and very surprised that her venue wasn't changed and the jury sequestered. She might not be getting a fair a way so i'm hoping somewhere someone will notice....just to the fact its her right and she will get the death penalty that is owed. Then again who are we as people to determine who gets paid back in the end. She will pay for her actions for eternity not in just this life. Poor Travis too. He didn't know, he was just being a young guy and young guys are jerks sometimes. So I think the moral of the story is that we all should teach our little girls is "Not everyone's gonna love you, or love you back or even love you the same." RIP to both of Jodi Arias and Travis....

Sunday, April 28, 2013

New brain tumor ....

I was speechless. MY ear nose and throat doctor said they saw a new brain tumor one that was different from the one in 2009 that was taken out. I'm grasping everything I can to keep smiling. I know god has a plan and a purpose for my life and this is just another bump along the way. I cry sometimes by myself or cry when Im driving when Im at the store or whatever im doing that gives me a minute to think...I cry. I need a miracle...and a life changer...Im working towards less stress...and less stress every day. My relationship with God keeps growing and I show no fear to no one but him. I refuse to let this thing in my brain get a hold of me...I will get a hold of it in the name of jesus I pray!! Next Tuesday I have a neurologist appointment....Lets let the HOly spirt do his work

Me and my dad at a festival in goodyear Arizona where his band Sugar band was playing. Me and the babies If you have a brain tumor and are reading this....FIGHT WITH NO FEAR!! GOD WILL HANDLE THIS!! I PROMISE. XOXOXOO Mo.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Special Needs Children and their Moms

I have been soooo busy I have ventured into two new businesses Abels house and the beauty pageant world and phew Im tired! I love it and have been so happy. Their is something that I have been thinking about recently. We moved to a weird community, its very old but cozy and cute. I don't really like it, I think our house is haunted believe it or not it had to be completely exorcised because it was, but that will on a while another thread with all the details lol. My son Abel is a special needs boy who is Intellectually Disabled. He was at the park where we live and I was sitting near by reading a book when I see a boy his age push him and "put up his dukes" in a way like he was going to hit him and Abel was laughing. I said immediately "hey whats going on! The little boy proceeded to his bike. I said why were you trying to fight him what happened? The little boy responds "He kept copying me" I tried my best not to laugh I said he doesn't understand that he does that, and Abel's friend nearby told the little boy its okay he was born like that. My heart skipped a beat I started to feel tears coming out. I was so touched by his friend that understood him and accepted him for his little differences than other boys. Its so heartbreaking for special need mothers to see their kids trying to be friends with others and they get misunderstood. Its our job to educate the other kids that they are just like them wanting everything they want friendship and love but they are a little different. I pray that Abel and all special needs boys and girls find love and friendship in this crazy judgemental world we live in. If we didn't judge and assume think of how the world would be. xoxoxo Check out my new business I love it!! I started a beauty pageant called Phoenix Princess Beauty Pageants maddy was in Arizona Lil Miss Spread the love friends and love everyone for them not for what they do or have.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Time and Change...

Everyday is a lesson. Every day is time to learn. I am learning everyday just like you are. Whether it be good bad, ugly or horrible...its a lesson. Today is a gloomy day. Im kind of at relaxed point peaceful point. Its so rainy outside today.Its such a awesome thing to just rest and soak time in. That's how I feel like I'm soaking time in. Its so fast. One of my friends died of cancer and came to me in a dream. he said he doesn't understand why he is dead. It was pretty cool to see him but I didnt have a answer for him cause he shouldnt be dead. He was so young. only 42. God I love you so much with all my heart and soul you are the miraculous king of kings and lord of lords I thank you for my precious moments for my life and my babies. Amen..xoxo Mo. This is a picture of my cousin who took his own life recently. Johnny didn't want to die and I don't think my cousin did either. Always love life...Its a gift that isnt returnable...and this is the only one you get. So slow down and look around. Smell the air feel the breeze.

Monday, March 4, 2013


I don't know why. I feel so bad today I wanna cry so hard. Im holding it in. Im dizzy and nausea, and my feet hurt Im tired. Im overly tired. I refuse to give up this fight of life. If you really look at it...Every day we fight when we get up. We fight to survive to eat to live to find a job, we fight others by interview. Im just tired. I need rest I know I do. Its coming. Rest and peacefulness. Please pray for me. I feel broken I dont know why. Maybe its just catching up to me. Im able to run from everything and now Im tired. Abel got a dog from the pound saturday. Im changing her name to Marley he wants Maxie or rexie.
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Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Back to Life...

Heyyy I been running around like a chicken without a head! hahah I havent blogged in a while friends. Im so sorry. Anyways Life is crazy we all know wouldnt be life with the fear of the unknown. Right? The word of today is METAFORMIN.... ;-( I have been feeling so tired...gaining weight....irriatable...frustrated my feet hurt sometimes and my arm numbs up...I sound worse than a 90 year old lady dont I lol.... They checked my sugar and it was 325....yesterday at Urgent Care..;-( They cant just Diagnose me as diabetic I just ate a truck load of french fries before I went in. Im kind of at a standstill...If you have read my blogs you know what happened Im tired of being tired and tired of Doctors and surgeries and all the crap!! Right now I am claiming my life back in the name of Jesus I command my life back right now. I am not Diabetic I am going to take care of myself and slow down for my kids and stop trying to change the world because its killing me. ;-( The day I found out I needed brain surgery me and abel were at the zoo. The day they said I am diabetic which Im not...;-) Maddy got her pedicure. Am I going to keep trying to spread Gods Love around the world...YES.>>>>>> AM I going to do it slower YES YES YES>>>>>>> I love you world. Keep up the fight of life and hit harder than what Life has to hit you with then you make life out to be what you want it to be, not what it gives you... Peace and love and blessings....xoxoxo Ill figure this stuff out...I wanted a burrito this morning but ate a salad with blueberries. btw Abels House is doing awesome. Mo.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Single Mom woes...

Like every single mom or any mom for that fact we worry. What if something happens to us, what will happen to the kids will anyone love them like we do. We have to have the best thoughts to put out in the universe the best intentions for it to send our kids. Our words have power and our thoughts have motion. Today I was minding my own business going about my crazy life and my Dr. called because I was supposed to have a CT scan of my neck and this was the followup appointment. I advised no one called me about a CT so they will call tommorow and schedule it. I have to have one because their is something growing on my tonsils inside my throat. I guess out of being so busy creating Abels House I accidently forget about this. I could ask why does this keep happening to me or do something about it. I was confused for the rest of the day and didnt know what was bothering until Church today. I was praying with my church and they prayed whatever is ailing someone health wise, keeping them down, making them worry attacking their body give them peace right now so you can heal them I started crying so hard because I remembered. I get so busy in my life keeping up with everyone at my new business, my life, Gabe, Julians medications my stress at home and wanting to move on the 1st that the only things that keeps me together my body continues to have these little things happen. I pledge to not let this get me down and dont accept whatever this is and command it in the name of Jesus to leave my body and never come back!! In the name of the father, holy spirt I claim my body and refuse to be a victim. I know everyone in the world is going through something so If you are, pray and let god come in, he will give you the strength you need to understand that life is beautiful and you are blessed. Today I think I have so much going on and get overwhelmed most of the time and dont tell anyone. I love my kids, I love my Gabe, I love my work at the halfway house....and pray to God that he keeps me going to keep doing his work for him. ;-)

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Masectomy Sisters

Good Afternoon WORLD!!!!!!!!! You know theres something that I have talked about my blogs in the past in fact in the reason I started blogging...Its my Bilateral Masectomy I had in 2009. That is why I started blogging and just kept blogging about what happens in my weird little life and then came my brain surgery ..etc etc...single mom dilemmas you know the rest right? If not read away my life is a open book here. I didnt think till recently to really tell my story.about my masectomy it didnt dawn on me since most of the time as a single mom, I dont get to think its always survival mode for, like okay I made it lets keep going type of attitude that I try to keep no matter what happens. A good friend of mine Mom was recently diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer and they asked me to talk to her. I was so happy to help and realized I havent really thought of what happened for a while, even though I cotinue to go through breast reconstruction its almost like a normal thing for me now to be in surgery. When I talked to my friend Rachael's mom that night I felt a sense of pride that I could help her before her surgery. Because I know what it feels like to wake up and I had no help before hand and wished I did. I looked for someone and looked for someone to talk to who could tell me what to expect and how they felt so I wasnt walking into something I had no idea. I felt proud to talk to Rachaels Mom and said to now we are sisters.

So I started Masectomy Sisters....Masectomy Sisters

Promote Your Page Too I hope I can and many other masectomy surviors help other girls cope and understand that they are beatiful and life will go on... Please help spread Masectomy Sisters Facebook...I hope it helps many and If you are reading this ..... I can talk to you...anytime.... Love light and healing... Mo

Thursday, January 3, 2013


Phew I been so busy I feel like my head is spinning!!! I didnt mean to not post, my life has went into overdrive with my new business, Abel and Maddy are growing so fast. Where has the time went. Well I will fill you in. My halfway house business called "Abels House" is doing awesome!! i am in the process of becoming a 501c charity which I am very proud of. We were blessed with many donations for the house and for the men which was a beautiful beginning and continues to be all in Gods name. Abel is flourshing and doing awesome!! We are very proud of him. Madison is doing soooo good shes my big little girl. On Chirstmas Eve we went to the North Pole Experience in flagstaff!!
Maddys Birthday was at Enchanted Island! shes two !! and since we share the same birthday im 36!
I went to the Cine Capri at the Biltmore and had dinner and a movie for my birthday...I cried and laughed the whole time I watched the guilt trip...drinking a blue moon and eating fried foods....HEAVEN right...Thank you Gabe!!!
In the middle of all the happiness my mom told me to Move out of her house!! on my birthday...Now shes saying she didnt but...Im going to go ahead and go with that...Life is to precious to be miserable or envious....Be happy Be gratefully for what you have because you have a million things to be thankful for.
I went to Accupunture Therapy yesterday!! at Turning Point Wellness in scottsdale... all I can say is wow!!! I recommend everyone see Melanie she read me like a book with all my health ailments and I found out im allergic to gluten which may be the root of all my health problems!!! I beleive that we are what we eat....and I have some serious overhauling to do with me and the kids eating habits. I need to follow up with my gladder polyps, colyn polps, stomach polyps....DO you get the picture somethings really wrong their...thats not normal that I go threw this and I Refuse to give up! SOmething cool last night my friend Rachael called me, and said her mom is havinbg a masectomy on monday she has stage 2 breast cancer and wants me to talk to her about the surgery since I has a bilateral masectomy. I was proud to talk to her and share my experiences. You can read all I went through in my 2009 blogs I was a mess. I was scared, I was lost but now...I look back and thank god for teaching me in those times. Cause now I can do anything..SHIT I went through brain surgery and a month later was substitute teaching.....I can do anything and so can you!! I pray you are reading this in the best of health and of mind. If you ever want to talk about any health issues or questions...Im here always....Talk to you soon Friends....I love you.

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Highly interested in the future of my two children...and creating postive memories for them is my goal. Im a single mother, a ASU graduate and a social accident.